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if you meant re Dr, only seen this guy 3x now, well after 7 years ago, but he wouldnt remember me @Appleblossom  I do take health care into consideration when moving location etc, sort of thinking could go back to where just came from now in some respects ha ha 

good luck at wrreckers gott a get moving here cant get away from computer

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❤️💜💙💚🖤💛🧡 @EternalFlower 

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@TAB Had a hilarious day not getting what she wanted, but getting to know each other and making friends. The rain was full on. Life is what it is.

 

@EternalFlower Hey!

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Ok sounds good @Appleblossom guess you didn't drive over the cliff yet .. yes movie ref..

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You ok @EternalFlower ?

 

I'm feeling down today. Lots of rain. Had a nap, going to eat my dineamic meal in a moment. You should get some from Coles. They are half price this week, only until Tuesday. It happens 1 or 2 times a year. My freezer is full now. Lightened my hair slightly. Tried it doing a bleach bath. It was a girly day.. Not sure why I feel down. I'm maybe seeing things too clear, or disappointed by results. Anyways, I think I'm gonna eat now. That helps usually, if not - I'll watch tv📺 wishing you hugs, laughter, silence & dogs wearing clothes (things I like) xx

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Hey @maddison thanks for the tip I saw those meals in Coles and clocked them...good sale. Sorry for the rainy day led to some mind wandering...I got soaked in just 2 minutes when I tried to duck out. It's still raining here and I'm watching the city from my windows 🪟 😐.  Moody, intense weather.

 Hey @Appleblossom that sounded like an adventure with your friend, I like the fun-embadcing and good energy. I say no to a lot of adventurous stuff and am a bit solitary at times.

Today I've had all the triggers. All of them. I was reading a book which reminded me of my academic year a few years back that I failed. It was about a uni student.

And then the mind wanders....

 

I was watching the football which I never do and then felt so invested in the results...goodness. and I don't even have a team.

 

Did u get out at all in the end @maddison ? hope the hair is a nice fresh feeling, that's so nice u had a girly day

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Hey @EternalFlower thanks for your support. My meal helped.. Feeling better now - a tad! I felt quite chatty lately, & now today I'm back to being introverted, quiet me. It made me 'laugh in my brain' to read how invested you were in the footy. That sounds tough having lots of triggers in one day. I never went to uni. I would have liked too. Although, the person I am now would find it impossible to deal with deadlines, hierarchies, structured learning etc. 

 

Yes, I probably should have gotten some fresh air today - that was good advice! Thx. Maybe I'm feeling too locked in.

 

I don't know what 'clocked' means. I think it means you bought some. Ace! They are good. I had lamb one tonight. Stay warm ef x

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Oooh @EternalFlower no good about being triggered a lot.

 

One of the problems about withdrawing or putting protective walls up is that we keep out the good stuff as well.  Done that a lot in my life.  Became so isolated for a few years before Covid.  Steadily breaking out of it.  Very wary, cos socialising with people who do not get me, just brings pain.  SO far I am experiencing a lovely feeling of clicking with this lady, on all levels, so going with that.  Eg she had a pair of the same Diana Ferrari shoes that I have ... and when I went to her place ... her garden is similar to mine... with many similar plants and similar art inside.

 

Ha ha @TAB I sed lil ole laydees fun ... not that movie ... finger wagging ... There are so many ways of being girly ... lol .... not the broom broom ferrari neither.  Guyz just dont get the importance ... of shoes.

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Haha @TAB @Appleblossom I get it now....I loved that movie 🎬 

 

Maybe empowering...I saw as a kid and the ending floored me, just confused and bewildered child me..

 

LOL @maddison I was truly sad by the results of the footy....don't know why.

 

I think many ppl had a challenging day today with the rain. It was a lot. Ppl more limited, isolated.

 

@Appleblossom u remind me of how nice it is to be social, through Ur easy times with friends. I live alone and don't love it but I relate in that bad people have to be, worse than being alone. Sometimes u can still be alone with false friends. 

 

The female dr/Psych I see sometimes asked me if I feel often misunderstood by ppl. Truth is, no more, but that's only because I only have 2 or 3 friends, and I've chosen them and they are decent people I trust, I've limited my pool of interactions so much, so the ones I have are good...but they're also very few.

 

So glad u feel bit better @maddison and had a chance to eat and chill out.

It was the heirachy of uni that I did not like. My supervisor would treat me like a garbage bin at times, and vent to me about his colleagues. He had a lot of power. Senior man. It made me feel very scared. Also almost all the lecturers were older men. It was hard to see myself in the educators, huge power imbalance.

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Well there were a few of that genre after thelma and Louise there was at least one more w Susan Sarandon anyways do wat u do lol @Appleblossom 


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