Thought I might share this... just finished writing it
@Former-Member @Jynx @tyme @Till23 @Shaz51 @MJG017 @Ru-bee @rav3n @Bill16 @PeppyPatti @Glisten @TAB @Appleblossom
you ask me what it looks like
complex PTSD
it's different for every person
for some it's neurodivergency
for me it's a lot of things
not just images in my mind
it's surrounded in pillows
because I'm the thrashing kind
it's dissociative seizures
where I pass out on the floor
can be out for minutes
or hours, or more
it's going from calm to panic
like the flick of a switch
something just triggered
maybe just an image
it's having something shake you
to the core of your memory
a concept or belief
that becomes your identity
it's waking up each day
wondering what will happen next
your schedule keeps you sane
what's the next thing on the list
it's being hypervigilant
because you know nothing else
always on your guard
dare not ask for help
it's always being tired
because you always had to see
what's around that corner
is it coming for me
it's terrified and triggered
at the most simple things
from words in nursery rhymes
to a myriad of things
it's not something you can plan for
or something to be changed
it's something that has shaped you
to be so incredibly... brave
