If you're angry and you know it kick the wall *thud*
If you're angry and you know it kick the wall *thud*
If you're angry and you know it and you really need to show it
If you're angry and you know it kick the wall *thud*
I had an elder ask me at church today how I'm doing, why I'm not content... I told him that I have been, feeling the need to justify my emotions... he asked me if there will be another drama after this...
I got home and sent him this
"Good work on challenging me, it can take some doing.
I think contentment as an emotion is one thing, but contentment in Christ is quite another.
I think contentment in Christ is more of an emotion climate than a weather when the emotion weather is what I often gauge.
I do think the climate is a bit stormy and disrupted right now, but that is to be expected.
If you're concerned the police interviews are about Delilah [thanks for the pickup], don't be, they're not.
You don't know my entire past and nor should you, but difficult will be an understatement.
I've had regular police interviews for the last 15 years to try and get justice if not for me, but for all those after me. That's who I am.
To ask me if there will be another drama after this, yes, there will be. There will always be more interviews, more memories, more work to be done.
If we have a life solely of contentment, then dare I ask what is God doing? God made emotions for a reason, and certainly not just contentment.
For some who don't battle with mental health everyday, contentment may be achievable.
But for those who have experienced unspeakable and atrocious abuse at the hands of all those who were meant to protect her for 25 years? 'I don't hate today' is enough.
It may not be content, but my emotions are no less valid, even when they're not what others think they should be.
I praise God on my good days and I cling to him on my bad. And for me, that's enough."
I'm sorry I don't have a happy switch
@tyme
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