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[tyme]

I know it is hard for you at the moment @BlueBay - but don't take the blame on yourself. It is NOT your fault. You are doing the right things. 

There is a reason and season for everything @BlueBay . Just hold on my dear. I'm here with you.

[BlueBay]

it has to be MY fault @tyme 

everything i do lately is my fault

can't even write an email without getting my psych angry

i am so over everything

i can't handle this anymore

i just want my meds and sleep

but not allowed to tke them

well maybe i will go and get them

i am so alone right now

[tyme]

I'm here with you @BlueBay - you may feel alone, but I am here. 

I hear the pain. I hear the upset. I hear the anguish @BlueBay .

But I also really believe nothing here is your fault.

For now, I just want to sit with you. We don't need to discuss whose fault it is because this wont change anything tonight.

I'm here my dear.

[BlueBay]

Thank you for being here for me @tyme 

I just need to go away 

I want to run fast somewhere 

I don’t know where 

I want the memories to go away 

I’m sorry I don’t know what I want anymore 

[tyme]

And that's okay @BlueBay .

It's okay to feel you want to go away.

It's okay to feel you want to run fast somewhere.

It's okay not to know where.

It's okay to want the memories to go away.

It's also okay that you don't know what you want anymore.

You are not 'wrong' or 'bad' for thinking in this way. It is a way of survival. 

Your inner person is stronger than you think. You have done your best today. 

For now, I am here. You may feel alone, but I assure you I am listening to you. 

Hugs, tyme

[Shaz51]

Sitting with you my sister @BlueBay ❤❤

👋😎 , @tyme , @TuxedoCat , @hanami 

Ohh my @BPDSurvivor , you did wonderful topic Tuesday last night xxx 

[tyme]

Hi @Shaz51 ! Good to see you on tonight.

[BlueBay]

🙏♥️ @tyme @Shaz51 

I need to go 

I need to hide away in my bed 

goodnight 

chat tomorrow xxx

[tyme]

Hugs my dear @BlueBay. Speak tomorrow.

[Shaz51]

Good night @BlueBay  ❤❤

Hi @tyme