Hello @Dimity and thank you.

Cancers have been treated and are gone just need to follow up every year.

No one else understands but the cancer diagnoses were actually the least of my worries. Except that radiotherapy replicated some of CSA and I had huge increase in PTSD symptoms (nightmares, flashbacks etc)

They did cause me to get psychological treatment at the time which is ongoing but will have to be reduced now I’ve retired because of the cost.

Although I am better off than some people it’s still very tight financially. I only just retired because I felt too stressed I think because of my MH problems, so it wasn’t ideal financially.

I’m currently really struggling with my value in society now I’ve retired.

I’m glad also that I found this forum. I feel a little bit less isolated and abnormal reading other people’s stories it certainly helps - so thanks everyone