Hi @Maggie 

Yeah, it is like that. I think that is why I really find it hard to find somewhere even online where I feel I can talk. Even on the social forum here, I look, but it just feels like I am intruding on someone elses conversation. And in other places I have tried, it is like .. I don't know .. that I just get ignored. That I don't have a voice, and how I feel gets kind of belittled. It is even worse IRL. 

Things still aren't good. The thoughts are still there. It is like a little worm that wriggles and burrows in to my thoughts, and it is difficult to shake it out. Or at least make it be silent for a while. 

Hope your day has been OK.