Hello, I am new here and I am unsure if this is the correct place for me to put this. I apologise if it is not! 

I won't make this an essay but I have struggled with mental health for as long as I can remember, I have had many different diagnosis over the years, many hospital stays, even 23 rounds of ECT. 
I also self medicated a lot from a very early age. I am now 37yrs old and I am grasping at straws here. I need help, I need someone who will really listen and evaluate me. I need to understand why I am the way I am. I am just so lost 😞 I don't have a lot of money, we are a low income family with three children in rural Victoria, but I will try get together what I can to try and sort myself out. My GP has referred me to the Psychiatrists within the area, and of course I have come across most of them through the public health system whilst being treated as an in patient on multiple occasions. I just need someone who will really listen and not just try and drug me up. I know I am a complex case, I just don't know where to turn. The last Psychiatrist my GP sent me to seriously had the balls to say that exercise will rid me of all my mental health issues, knowing full well the extent of the treatment I had already received in the past.

Any advice greatly appreciated please and thank you!