Apology

[Historylover]

A note of apology to @tyme for my recent outburst. Everything just got too much for me, and remains that way. Cheers.

[chibam]

Hi @Historylover . Sorry you've been feeling so overwhelmed lately. 😟 I don't know what to say. I hope things are starting to look a bit brighter.🤗

[Historylover]

Thanks @chibam. 🥰

[tyme]

Dear @Historylover ,

Thank you for your dignity and honesty in reaching out.

I hear things have not been going too well for you, and in the past, you have found the forums helpful. I would not want to take that away from you.

I respect you and I acknowledge what is currently happening for you.

If, at anytime, you have any questions, you are very welcome to email team@saneforums.org

I deeply appreciate your post, and wish you all the best.

See you around, tyme

Hi @chibam 👋

[Appleblossom]

Hugs and a cuppa and chat @Historylover 

I saw you setting a boundary and being defensive of a valued relationship, but maybe this is part of an issue with boundaries not always being a good thing. idk

Good to see you.

[Historylover]

Yes, @Appleblossom.  On several K10 tests (if that is what they are called), when asked how often I felt worthless, I have answered with a resounding "Never!", but I endure a constant feeling that I have been mercilessly used up and cast on the scrap heap, and I consider that to be an accurate appraisal. It's a different issue, to my mind.

The injustice causes me deep, unrelenting despair, and to think that I still defend that monster of a psy is a measure of the 'number' he did on me.  Just wish I could return the favour to my abusers.

Cheers. I'm having hot chocolate–of sorts–and 'a' biscuit.

[Appleblossom]

These can probably pass for hot choc and bikkies maybe.

I am not big on some of the measurement 'tools' used.

Cant agree with your negative self talk.

I looked up to a pdoc who took me for a ride too.  Not seen him in a long time, but it was at a crucial period in my young family's life.

[chibam]

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@Historylover wrote:

Yes, @Appleblossom.  On several K10 tests (if that is what they are called), when asked how often I felt worthless, I have answered with a resounding "Never!", but I endure a constant feeling that I have been mercilessly used up and cast on the scrap heap, and I consider that to be an accurate appraisal. It's a different issue, to my mind.

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I'm sure it varies from doctor to doctor, but IME, those tests were never even looked at. I used to vary my responses all the time, trying to figure out how I could send a silent SOS to my doctor, and there was never any reaction. Not from him, nor from Medicare. I don't think anyone looks at the numbers.

Hoping you feel better, @Historylover .🤗

[Historylover]

@Appleblossom, you didn't have to worry about providing the refreshments. I got my own, but I'm enjoying those you've provided now, too. I love almond fingers and that hot chocolate looks better than the one I made! Marshmellow, too?

I think you may have misread my reference to Dutch. It belongs to my ex-h, not to me. I can still enjoy almond fingers though.

I am trying to churn my way through my assignments. A really heavy load in this course with an extra assignment before the big, PowerPoint presentation. 

It's not negative self-talk @Appleblossom, it's just an accurate appraisal of my situation. I wish it wasn't.

The measurement tools are ridiculous. I answered anything to some as they didn't even apply or were unable to be interpreted. Any answer can't be a very reliably measured test. 

[Historylover]

I'm limping on @chibam. That was a very bruising experience and I didn't think I could ever recover. Perhaps–slowly. 

I've endured two K10 tests in past years. One from a GP who seemed to think that it was an excellent tool, and the other from a social worker of some sort. I felt infantilized being subjected to their childish game. It would be kind to say it was ridiculous. I just shake my head in exasperation. Medical science at its best? That's why I look after my health. 

I hope you're doing alright–or better @chibam. Sending all good cheer.😊