C-PTSD and Childhood Trauma

[avant-garde]

@tyme 

Yeah, it had felt off between me and her after that day, but it felt incredibly isolating that I reached out, I was vulnerable, I asked for help and like I was told that I shouldn't. I was out of line. 

Her husband has an office opposite the dental surgery and I asked to hang out there after the extraction to let the meds wear off in a supportive environment. She said it was wrong to ask. To go sit in the library.

[tyme]

I'm sorry this happened @avant-garde . I hear that it would've felt so isolating and difficult, especially if all you were wanting was to sit there and let the meds wear off.

I know we are supposedly 'social' creatures, but it makes me wonder whether it's easier just doing some things alone.

[avant-garde]

@tyme 

Meeting with another friend today, he asked me what my expectations were for church and asked about a comment I made, that I feel like doors are being shut. This is one of the doors that feels shut, because of what she said.

[tyme]

How are you feeling today @avant-garde ?

[avant-garde]

@tyme 

Frustrated, hurt, confused

She thinks we're fine and I don't want to turn this into a mountain. But we're not fine. 

I called my case manager today and it felt good to unload and be validated.

[tyme]

I'm glad you were able to unload and speak to someone @avant-garde