"Izzy's Headspace"
So you all know who I am, married mother of 4 and proud grandma to one 13 year old granddaughter, This is going to be a long post so I am sorry in advance. I currently share my mind with
Little one 3yrs old
Kimmy 5yrs old who absolulty loves @Lee82 and now @Former-Member because she was nice to her last night
Kimba 12yrs old
Bear 14yrs old
Kim 16yrs old
Nikki 43yrs old
Kimberly age unknown
Yes there is a lot of kim names, this is because that was my birth name but I changed my name a few years ago now. They are all me at different ages.
Bear, Nikki and Kimberly aren't that 'active' right now so I bearly hear them and they are rarely out in the body at the moment. Little one and Kimmy are very "active" but since I am connected to them I can hear and see what they are doing, most of the time. If they are feeling a strong emontion however they have the ability to block me out, which basicly means I have no idea of what is happening.
What's it like to have two little people in your 43 year old body, I can wake up sucking my thumb and crying for no reason (3yr) or I can be found walking around a major shopping center carrying a new baby doll that Sean just brought me (5yr) I will end up with ice cream all over my face not matter where we are if one of the young ones are out.
All I know of the other two comes from what Sean has told me. Kimba the 12yr has just tried to leave this world by taking something. While this is not my reality it is hers so when she is 'active' the body is very sleeply to the piont of passing out (which happened in the bathroom last night) This maybe resolve qiuckly or this could take months it's an unknown. When she is not sleepy, the body can be found in a corner hiding. Kim the 16yr old is absolutly disgusted with where her life is in the here and now. She does a lot of the sh and is really angry a lot. While these two alters are out I have no idea of what is being said or done and lose a lot of time.
Before the attack in December I lead a basicly stable life, had it's ups and downs like everyone else but I had learnt to function and fuction well with my DID, I never had to take a sick day for my mental health at all. The C-PTSD has unfortunitly re trigger my DID in a major way. I have never used my mental health as an excuse and I am not about to start, simply because its all me at the end of the day. I will say though that some of the posts that have gotten me in trouble where actullay posted by my alters.
Well if you got this far thank you, I have never been so open with anyone about my DID and it is kind of scary. Thank you for "listening" thank you all for your support and understanding. You are the most amazing bunch of people.
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