I just can’t even right now. Just not coping at all.
TW: mention of an attempt, eating disorder (no explicit details)
really struggling with life right now. Nothing seems to be going right and my professional mental health “care” seems to be a bit up in the air and the only informal supports I have are online friends.
drowning in an ED, although most of the time I feel invalid and can’t fathom that I have this diagnosis, but at the same time the behaviours and thoughts are feeling a bit extreme to me.
i made an “attempt” on Tuesday night and basically just had to get on with it the next day like nothing happened. No one in my real life knows about it. I saw my regular psychologist the afternoon of that same day and she was extremely unhelpful and minimising and dismissive of my situation, I felt, which further escalated things.
I’m seeing my new ED psychologist on Tuesday for our first therapy session (the first two appointments were assessments), and honestly it can’t come soon enough. I’m pretty sure she hates me though already and I feel like just cancelling and disengaging from all my supports at this point.
