yeah , I was socially awkward for years , prob had more than one year in primary school where I cant remember having any friends , then moved to dift school and everyone wanted to fight me . I did not fit in basically . so around 14 though hey I'll start drinking and smoking.
stop smoking a couple times, never really stopped drinking. in my late teens/early 20s I used to aspire to be in hospital/ get put in mental hospital, well at least I used to say that on the basis that I thought it might help me lol @creative_writer I have spent most of my lif alone. am over 60 now, then all this health Bs over the last 5 years like heart. blood clots, massive weight gain etc plus thyroid trouble and me looking for some medical solution to problem just to be told oh its all You . Oh well. wasnt me ..5 years ago watevs.
