2022

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its all good @Jacques

I didn't tag anyone

Sometimes i make new posts without tagging people so reason to apologise

It's not so much about job and work anymore I guess hey. It's more about what I can do with my time otherwise. I have a plan, just got to enact it. I'm still doing my work placement on the side which has been beneficial. Opens up doors. I spoke to my psych about it too

I don't think your partner will you leave you mate - you are genuine and that is worth more than anything. That's what I aspire to be. I said this to some matches on a dating app lately - that i was taking a break from dating and needed to prioritise my life. I hate ghosting too. It's the worst.

Things are changing for me mate. Just a case of enacting it i guess. There will be dark moments but this is part of life maybe?

I keep remembering the salutation to the dawn as well you know

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Yeah i dont get why they leave 'skeleton' or ghost posts around like from 'former member' @MDT

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who knows lol @TAB

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HS-01 .. @MDT lol

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Hams of the Foreign Office

Lol

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Hi @MDT 

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Hows it going @oceangirl

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Hey forumites

Taking some time to read my book now.

Have had a chat to folks about my direction in life.

So many of the reasons why I am depressed derive from what I do. In terms of how I spend time and what I do for a living. I have no motivation to go out and do things, largely because I have few friends and also because I have little interest in making new ones.

I know I am a good person, but its just that at this stage in my life I am facing a bit of trouble and difficulty.

I believe I am entitled to want good things in this life. Things that bring joy. Life is not all about duty. Life is more than duty. It is about joy and peace as well

There are numerous thought patterns, practises, habits and actions I do unconsciously that inhibit personal growth and advancement. Forcing myself to do something "good" for myself often has the opposite effect on me. It must always come from a place of good for it to have a good effect.

It is hard to maintain a sense of positivity when the main thing I spend my time doing is causing me to feel depressed.

I can accept what I do for a living is good to some. But not to me. I believe this is okay. This is not a bad thing.

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Hey @Appleblossom
I note you tagged me on the post I made - onwards I go - funny how things change so quickly.

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