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[outlander]

@Sophia1 😞 ❤

[TheVorticon]

I wish I could stop thinking, feeling, wanting. Make it all disappear, make myself disappear. Like I was never here in the first place  

[eudemonism]

I'm slowly dying... And I'm in more relationships that are slowly k'lling me then not... life has turned out to be truly disappointing!.. and life has turned out to be truly vein and futile... i just want a bit of reliable enjoyment out of each day.......

[eudemonism]

What did one piece of dust say to the other piece of dust? There's something wrong with you... let me feed you with vanity and futility to make you better...

[Adge]

I've had viruses on my mobile phone & computer in the past week.

They played havoc, & actually cut off my internet & forum access.

That explains a lot of why I've been unable to post much, as well as recent overwhelm.

Adge

[greenpea]

Son very manic tonight

as he talks the feelings of sh grow

his voices want to hurt people

he is talking them down

my feelings of sh get stronger

feelings of not being safe

guilt of my daughter hearing this

no wonder she is sick

no wonder I am sick

my son is sick ....

he is fine now he has come in with jelly beans to share like nothing has happened ....

[outlander]

Everytime i write a post i delete it. I don't know what to say. Sometimes i wish i was a robot.

[greenpea]

I wish I could be myself again

I am so medicated up I have lost who I am

I look in the mirror I am not me anymore

I listen to my thoughts I don't know who this person is

Sure I am no longer insane amd climbing the walls but the new greenpea is not me

The creative side has gone, the manic side has gone

It is repressed under a vail of what is considered normal amd acceptable.

F*ck what is normal and what is acceptable!!

What about difference? What about diversity?

Difference and diversity gets trodden on and crushed and oppressed

[eudemonism]

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[TheVorticon]

I think it's time I gave up on many things. The hope for something different, to be someone different, to be ok with me, on trusting my thoughts, my feelings, me. I've twisted around on myself too many times, my mind is mangled, muddled, melted. The cause and solution, rightful, justified punishment, is to remain alone.