Lived Experience Forum

[BlueBay]

Why 

why me 

did I have something written on my forehead - abuse me 

WTF is wrong 

I’m wanting to run away 

I’m going to take a med to help me sleep 

I’m going 

I don’t want these memories 

@tyme 

[BlueBay]

I’m scared @Shaz51 

how much more will I remember 

i can’t do this 

I need to sleep 

don’t know if I can 

[tyme]

I hear you are scared @BlueBay . Please know you are not alone.

I'm here with you.

[BlueBay]

I just want someone to draw the picture I have in my mind of this guy. 
i need it out of my head 

it’s triggering so much 

I don’t want it 

@tyme @TuxedoCat 

[BlueBay]

just called the CAT team to see if I could take anything for these new flashbacks

lady wasn't friendly at all.

said to see my dr

but can't until monday

damn

i hate today

@tyme @TuxedoCat 

[TuxedoCat]

Monday is just a few days away @BlueBay! ❤️ 

What's on for the nest few days? 

[BlueBay]

nothing @TuxedoCat 

i need to get hold of someone who can help me with these flashbacks of new abuse that i have remembered

how much more do i need to remember

how much more do i go through

these next two days are going to be the longest days ever

[tyme]

It certainly seems like a lot to tackle on your own @BlueBay - I hope you will be able to reach out for some professional supports.

Sitting with you.

[BlueBay]

I can’t handle this tonight @tyme @TuxedoCat 

I feel like I need to run away I want to hide away so no one can find me 

I want these visions to go away 

I don’t know if I’ll be on here again tonight 

maybe tomorrow 

I just need to go

[tyme]

I hear you @BlueBay ,

I'm also thinking, maybe the 1800RESPECT line would be a good place to call if you find you are really struggling tonight.

Although the abuse is not happening right now, I'm thinking the counsellors on 1800RESPECT may be able to guide you in a more helpful way than I can.

Their number is 1800 737 732

I'm here if you want to chat tonight. Otherwise, I'll speak to you tomorrow 🙂

Take Care,

tyme