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27-06-2019 01:39 PM
27-06-2019 01:39 PM
Re: Feeling really flat
The punishment continues... now the Mrs just wants to go around hurting my feelings all day. I can’t see how someone can say I love you but I hate you in the same breath. I wanted to go out so I don’t have to listen to it, but she’ll throw a fit if I do. So I’m holed up in the bedroom crying yet again. I have nowhere to go even if I did leave for a while. I have no money and no friends anywhere near me.
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27-06-2019 01:58 PM
27-06-2019 01:58 PM
Re: Feeling really flat
Hey @Queenie hearing you, and want you to know that we're all here to listen and support you on the forums. You are resilient, and super strong - this will pass. You're allowed to cry, allow this moment for yourself
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27-06-2019 08:24 PM
27-06-2019 08:24 PM
Re: Feeling really flat
I showed my Mrs a red card meaning things are not going well. She ignored it. That makes me feel like I deserve not to be loved. I got through the afternoon with some maladaptive coping behaviours that I cannot discuss here but I’m hurting. First it was my dream of social work which was stripped from me, now this. It’s just too much! I don’t have much to offer except my brain (I was under this delusion that I was intelligent), now it appears my brain is where the problem lies.
This afternoon I wasn’t safe in myself. I guess now I’ve taken a teeny step back from the abyss. I just am numb. I’m crying but I think it is more about the embarrassment of being found out in reality I’m just an unintelligent charlatan.
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27-06-2019 08:40 PM
27-06-2019 08:40 PM
Re: Feeling really flat
Hi @Queenie I am Whitehawk, moderating this evening. I am sorry to learn that you are hurting at the moment and that you were not safe in yourself this afternoon. It sounds like a very tough patch you have been going through today. A teeny step back from the abyss sounds like a very important step for you, so well done, I am sure you have the strength and courage to take further steps to safety. And the intelligence too. please reach out to SANE if you need our support.
Whitehawk
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27-06-2019 09:29 PM
27-06-2019 09:29 PM
Re: Feeling really flat
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27-06-2019 10:05 PM
27-06-2019 10:05 PM
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We each need to take inventory at times, even when it's hard. I am doing the same atm. Hearing you
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30-06-2019 01:54 PM
30-06-2019 01:54 PM
Re: Feeling really flat
I pretended I was asleep yesterday and overheard my Mrs and my MIL talking really rudely behind my back. My MIL already gets over half my pension each fortnight and now she wants $100 more. To do this, she wants me to cancel my health insurance (which means no more hospital or psychiatrist). She also wants me to be the first one awake and last one asleep because I snore. I’m heartbroken. I heard everything the two of them said. They thought I was asleep but I wasn’t. It’s all because I’m exhausted during the day for two reasons 1) my medication sedates me and 2) the cat keeps me awake at night (remember the MIL refused to allow us to shut our bedroom door so the cat can come in). I want to move out but every time I’ve mentioned it, the MIL throws a tantrum and threatens to harm herself. I feel stuck! Help!
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30-06-2019 03:31 PM
30-06-2019 03:31 PM
Re: Feeling really flat
Hi @Queenie
I am sorry you heard all that and you have to go through this.
I'm not sure what help I can be but wanted to know that I am listening.
My thoughts are with you
Snowie
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30-06-2019 05:56 PM
30-06-2019 05:56 PM
Re: Feeling really flat
maybe @CheerBear @Teej @eth @Appleblossom @Former-Member may have some ideas
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30-06-2019 06:09 PM
30-06-2019 06:09 PM
Re: Feeling really flat
Sending warm wishes @Queenie Hearing you and feeling for you.