Not tagging anyone...
I have tried tonight to connect again but feeling the weight of this situation again. I have taken a back seat on here to try to let things settle but all that has done is make me more upset that I was the one left feeling isolated because of the actions of another.
What was said was hurtful, aggressive and insensitive. I chose to share a very personal interaction and commented further how much I was struggling with both that and life in general. The response was exactly what I had just mentioned my mother always does to me – to turn that around on herself and make herself the centre of whatever was going on – then try to blame me for how she was feeling. That is not okay and definitely not deserved in any way, shape or form.
This has not just affected me but many who read it as well. To all those people I want to thank you for your support, your kind words and your compassion. Unfortunately in the space I am in this has had a significant impact on me and I don’t know how to change that at present.
I have tried tonight but knowing I cannot give what I usually do is making me feel uncomfortable being here. This I fear is going to be a long process to change and I expect a lot of work off forum to do so.
I am asking everyone here to look after each other, build the community back up through support for each other and share the love and care that I know still exists here. Do not let one attack be so pervasive that this community cannot pull together for each other. That is the greatest gift you could all give me here.
My head and my heart still feel broken and I cannot say if/when that will change. Some things there are just no coming back from when they hurt so much and this has certainly brought up a lot of those feelings again. Words – especially here – matter and they can cause untold damage.
